I feel great that you have finally come to an end. You started like every other year but i thought you were going to be better. I wanted you to be a limestone that I marked for the rest of my life, but atleast I got to learn more about myself. I took a step back then I lost track of time, I let go of the promises I made to you and gained more than a few pounds. I made mistakes which made me see a better truth about myself. I saw in real time what happens when you put others first before yourself and I realized the hard way no one is responsible for my happiness only I. The beginning was tough, although it made me weak and vulnerable, it is what now gives me strength.
The mistakes I made were for a reason and now I see the better truth you were trying to teach me. You taught me love, how to let go and love someone, I even got to love you the hardway. Now that we are good, I dont understand why you are such in a hurry to leave. You showed me what I didnt want my life to be, you taught me that if I give up on my dreams no one is going to care about what I did only what i’m doing and if I do dwell on what they think, I will only get lost again.
You made me see a lot of things I wasnt doing right like how I would always run away from my problems and hide in my silence and frowns. Now i’m all smiles. You also showed me my greatest fear failure, in which I found strength and worked hard like never before to not remain with you even when you are gone, no offence 2019 I love you but its not that deep.
Infact, I change my mind. I actually hate you. What did you make me do honestly?. The thought of it still fills me with anger, how can you make me loose hope in myself. You made me forget the most important figure to me, which is also me. You’re evil oh, I dont mean to be narcissistic but you made me to just be living and I focused on things that wasnt right for me. Although I found my love for money, I also saw that it has no value and will always run dry if I dont keep the stream running, you were supposed to break the dam for me but no instead you were entertaining fires and accepting more people to get stuck with you. Now they dont get to see your brother 2020, but let me burst your head.
Dont be jealous, 2020 called me last night, he said he is coming to pick me up at midnight and I should prepare for him. You know how well I can plan, I have already set out the things I will do with him ( hot, hot things) and if he doesnt agree its going to be a battle. I’m not going to be weak like I was with you. . .
. Come to think of it, you didnt keep anyone I love, even when you tried. So I thank you for that, also thank you for helping me find a new passion and I promise not to let it go. I promise not to let go of the people that stuck with me through out your existence, those who have helped me, encouraged me and have hated me as well. Now I see that i’m a good a person, with a good heart. I dont need anyone to tell me that or how beautiful I am (you self know na), I pull the weight equally. So, I DON’T need approval from friends who want to pull me down, I no longer look down on looks because of what the society deems worthy and now I see myself as being more than worthy because I got a lot of great things they don’t have and i’m not willing to share. . .
I learnt a lot from you and I also found out I know a lot. I understand how good it is to take a break, I enjoyed it but its time now to get back to work. Now I have to work extra hard to meet up with the time you made me loose. Yes oh, i’m in a hurry and i’m telling you now to watch because 2020 ganna have to be my year. Its the big zeroes for the big zeroes, if you know you know. . .
Goodbye 2019, abeg go with your wahala but bless me one last time you know i’m not going to see you again, i’ll always remember you as the year I found myself. Thanks a bunch for the people you brought into my life and the ones you took away. Alright dont feel too special, bye forever. Never going to see you again.
Yours truthfully, Yeka Asumah.
Thanks for making it this far, I’m glad that you’re alive today to read this.
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I Am Yeka Asumah,
An ordinary girl from Nigeria with big dreams.
I love to write, read, learn and try new things every day. I enjoy the ability to air my voice out, expressions and being able to inspire people with my little thoughts. I hope to one day create an atmosphere where people can drop their challenges and together help solve them... I am on a journey to success and greatness. I would like for you to join me on that journey.